Hello reader!

It’s October again! Where does the time go? I have once again been slack, but without going into too much detail, I think some family emergencies are a good enough excuse for not being around on here.

I’m road-testing a new keyboard to see if I can migrate some of my work to an iPad – given that I am a mouse heavy person I am already struggling with the Apple interface (I am typing this via the iPad now and I seem to be making a lot of spelling mistakes). I have a few days to return it so I’m going to give it a good test run before I make a decision but I am feeling like it’s not for me.

Anyway, back to the real problems in my world – I still feel like crap. The warnings that my GP gave me regarding feeling fine but crap are actually happening. I can manage what I need to do on a daily basis, but the exhaustion is so bad it sometimes makes me cry. On the bright side though, I am a little closer to getting the good drugs as I have completed my sleep study at the hospital and will be getting my results in mid-November, which will in turn enable my script to be signed off on. I am hopeful to feel a bit better with the new meds and have joined the gym through work in anticipation. I just plan on doing some basic strength exercises to get me back on track as it’s also hard trying to get through everyday aching from weak muscles and deconditioning.

There’s also a hiccup in getting better as I need to see a gastroenterologist to ascertain if I might have a peptic ulcer (thanks mum) or if the heavy doses of ibuprofen I had through the pericarditis days (thanks Pfizer) have done serious damage. So, like any good citizen waiting for a diagnostic test, I am eating everything in sight! Probably not the best course of action, but what if they decide I can’t have certain things after the fact? My partner is forever telling me to not be so concerned about things beyond my control in advance, but I feel like if there was an Olympic event for worry, I would be on the podium every time.

There’s a few things in the pipeline at the moment – presuming I have passed this teaching period at University, I will have 4 more subjects til I graduate. I’m also hoping to be able to increase my hours at work, but work less days (as someone has retired and her hours are up for grabs) which will help me settle a bit more financially and health-wise – but I am not feeling it as management seem to be a bit dodgy on the whole topic. I guess it is a wait-and-see approach even though others have suggested approaching them about it. I made it pretty clear and I feel like constantly going back to them would come across as needy and annoying.

Will keep you posted! Hopefully know by the end of November.

Look after each other and yourself!

Bx